So i’m not really sure if that was the right thing, but i know that it’s the best thing for now, i have to clear the plate and start from scrath, i WANT to do that. i want to have a clear head and just focus on the priorities. i can’t have distraactions, i was scared , yess. but you know what who wouldn’t be, if i settle on the past i’ll get stuck, thats how i felt yesterday, STUCKK . worse feeling you’ll ever encounter, but i’m getting back up, if i’m not on my feet yet.. atleast i’m on my knees for now. i gained enough to know that my direction is that one way street, nothing backwards.
You’re not gonna stay the same forever, you’ll never feel hurt or happy all the time. How come when i look back, i get stuck. When I just want a little glimpse i get pulled back. i want to stop saying “want” , ahah i just lost to myself. I’ll get to where i’m aiming for, seems to everyone i’ve reached it, but its the inside thing, you’ll understand when you experience it, for now, all i can do is warn you about four letters(:
Honestly, im happy. Back at the beggining of summer my lifee was going down hill so fast ,but hey I survived it. Summers officially over, & thankgod the fire is gone (: I thinkk, hmm. Well I barely blog, this is actually from my phone but this summer I learned, it actually opened my eyes, and helped me realize that im not alonee , you knoww who you guys are <3 thank you. & vacation at the phillipiness really madee my summmer even better, it was my get away (: well, today I wokee up very early had francis waiting outside my house & walked to school for a meeting, then after we chilled at my housee ahaha. Danielkim was being a very stubborn little boy and he insisted on pancitt canton, so I coooked it for him. Hmm we watched the whole revuee dvd, mann watching it gives you a really tingly feeling. Then afterr we dragged our brokeeasses to the mall, got l&l and rite aid ice creamm, ahah daniel spotted me . Cynthiaa left for the doctorss andd bryan , martin, francis me bianca and daniel weree at my house the whole day. We were so damn cranky too ! We barely had food ! Ahhaa. Then we started playingg gamess and we got all hyper after watching stepbrothers. I madee eggs with francis ahah. And spam . I washed so much dishes ! Ahah. Well, I felt like a mom today feeding like 4 kids ahaa. Ilovethem<3 hmm, then after playing bs & pickup sticks we walked to smart and final to play chubby bunny ahaaah. We took 45 mintuess just deciding on what to buy ! Hmmm, we played and me & martin were losers today ahhah. We put makeup on him ! Well, it was a really goood way to end summer , wow my hands hurt. Gnight , schoools tommroww !<3