And it begins.

So it’s thanksgiving, i’m so thankfull for my family my friends, my old friends, my boyfriend, my ex boyfriends, my team , my old team, my future & my past. Today i imagined it to be differnt a year ago. I was thankfull for different things last year, this year i just wanna appriciate everything, all the good and even all the bad. The bad helped me overcome the problems, it prepared me for anything worse. Seriously, it sucks to lose what i had last year, but it’s the best feeling knowing what i have this year. Today’s actually more than thanksgiving , or it should have . haah, thank you god for providing me with so much people to be around. i realized that humans will never stop wanting what they can’t have, we never think of all the things we already have. i read my horoscope today & it said before you grab a new plate for seconds take another chance to look at your first plate, you might not know theres still perfectly good food on there. it kinda means to not move on too quickly, i mean you can’t hold on to all your past but you should atleast be thankful for it, you never knwo when the memory is gonna go away completely.

Sometimes you gotta let love be what’s its gonna be, so we’ll lose some & we’ll gain some, you can’t please everyone, I know what I want & no one’s gonna tell me that im wrong about that, if im happy I’ll know, if im wrong I’ll find out, if I cry I’ll get over it, its when I lose someone is whenn it’ll hurt, I know im not wrong , but I also know im risking it.

who ever said it’s impossible to miss what you never had, well , just gonna live by “good lookin’ out” and even if we were almost there, it’s too hard to know i’ll get hurt. i may be dumb for giving up, but it’s just what i gotta do. i can’t do aything else.